Talking about mental health let down. This is a subject I did not want to narrate about further other than the Virginia case. Despite the incident in VA, I have repeatedly tried to get mental health help but it is clear it does not work for some people. However, there is ample evidence this is far truer for a massive section of the American public, especially in the poor. Which is why I have taken to writing as a coping mechanism, otherwise I would have flipped out a long time ago! It is not surprisingly, another day and another attempt at getting help, the same issue has reappeared in another dramatic fashion this week.

The following are highlights of my mental health background and issues getting help prior to the most recent incident(s):

In October of 2021, following the loss of my truck and in the middle of my worker’s comp case, I suffered my first high level stress event-sending me to the ER due to an apparent angina. I sought out a psychologist who diagnosed me with PTSD and severe depression.

While in Virginia I suffered an extreme event that led me to getting arrested (the VA case page.) Three (3) separate mental health facilities when I was in this state diagnosed me with again PTSD and severe depression as well as a host of other psychological pathologies. Once my criminal case was “force” finalized, I left for MD to prep my boat for departure.

While in Maryland, I had secured insurance (sincerely, thank you MD!) and got coverage through Kaiser Permanente and saw a primary care physician. Because of the fresh incident in VA, I never discussed my mental health. I left MD in late December 2025. Now in the FL Keys for the winter, about four or five months later, at the request from my primary care physician in MD, I scheduled a phone consultation. Not the primary reason for that call (a sixth month review I believe), I finally relayed to my doctor that I was indeed suffering serious mental health conditions, but no details were discussed. He forwarded my information through their channels. The next time they contacted me about a month later I asked about getting mental health support through them via tele-health, but was told because I was now out of state, I could not get help through them. I told them to go ahead and close my account as I was certain the state of MD would have ended my insurance availability and file. I tried to get Medicaid as well as other benefits through the Asshole State of Florida and was subsequently denied. Kaiser called about a week later to see if I was able to get any help. This was the last and actual message I had sent via their website-patient portal on May 18th 2:15pm, Lol, It’s all an endless circle of crap! The people at Kaiser pointed me to try some local places and gave me a short list. So, I reached out to Guidance Care Center and was eventually scheduled with Shanon. I spoke to Shanon via phone about a week before the appt. and had a good conversation with her. It was the type of conversation you have with someone when you instantly click with. I genuinely felt maybe this might be the person that might actually try to help and I liked her personality!

There is one more event that happened about two weeks before my scheduled appointment with Shanon, this is important with regard to psych diagnostics. I had injured my back on June 07^th trying to help a fellow boater. I tried to go to the ER and they committed an EMTALA violation, HIPAA violation and called the Monroe County Sheriff’s Department to rid me like some pest. One of the officers tried to pull typical cop crap on me saying I would be arrested if I did not ID myself. I continued to deny knowing my rights and later we all left the scene without me being arrested. I videotaped the entire incident both in the hospital and with the police. I am more than welcome to share a copy and in time will post to YouTube. I am trying to obtain a lawyer to sue the hospital and Sheriff’s department, which as I revealed throughout this website and my book is impossible for the average joe in this corrupt Florida legal system.

Now this is where some details matter. Previously at Horizon Behavioral Health, they accused me of in their words: “he presented as highly agitated throughout the assessment, at times becoming verbally aggressive towards clinician.” With this in mind I made sure my demeanor was especially pleasant.

End of my mental health background and into the incident(s):

The day of our first session (Tuesday June 23^rd) I was pleasantly surprised when I met Shanon. She was a very attractive woman with blonde hair, nice body. She was very upbeat, positive, and chatty. Because of my mental state, I have been a total recluse and have not engaged with people let alone a woman in a long time. Despite this we did get to work (keep in mind these are only 1-hour sessions and I have a lot of mental baggage), it went well and we got right to the point and I laid everything out as described in my FL and VA cases albeit brief, I told her about the recent incident at the hospital and even told her about the website. The website was pertinent because she had asked about coping mechanisms and what I spent my time doing these days-writing. All in all, the conversation was pleasant and I felt like some of that baggage was lifted.

The next session (Tuesday June 30^th) was equally pleasant and productive, but also provocative. At the beginning we were discussing her life, I found out she was single, an age appropriate 49 (I honesty would have guessed late thirties/early forties. Then she revealed the night before she thought about my last name and her first-Shanon Cannon? Needless to say, my attention was compromised for the rest of the session. We did move on to more serious talks, including she told me she read some of the website/my bio and seemed concerned, indifferent and intrigued about different aspects of it, but did point out several positive points. The conversation was very good and our conversation did move towards serious philosophical discussions which is a subject I have found myself so interested in lately. I am sure you know the feeling when things are going good-time flies. Well at the end of therapy we both had one final thing we sprung on each other. We were already in overtime for the second time. She began with trying to rush the treatment plan and my signature. While she was searching her laptop for the file I had told her I was very attracted to her. I don’t think she was surprised, but obviously concerned as we were already late and she struggled to find the words: “If we dated-I could not treat you or be your therapist.” Or something like that. I was at the time too amused by her reaction. This no doubt left me in good spirits and with a tiny bit of positivity in my life. I am a realist though, and have been let down many times before, and even I admit I am not mentally ready for a relationship as much as I want to make sweet love with some woman.

As the week went on, I had some issues…………

We all know about how the GOP is trying to erase SNAP, Medicaid, housing and Social Security, and they have done a very thorough job making all these much-needed benefits unobtainable. Without addressing the chore simple problem of income inequality and stagnant wages the only logical reason is to create slaves. I refuse to be one. Plus, FL owes me, a lot of money! Anyway, my fight to secure benefits continued and I decided to go through the case worker thinking they may have more authoritative power to help individuals then filing through the state website that screens applicants via an automated system.

As much as I wanted to have someone else review my application for benefits, I decided to go through my religious fanatical case worker Gary. We scheduled Monday July 06^th to submit SNAP/Medicaid and section 8 documents and the next day Tuesday July 07^th for SSDI. But apparently, he injured himself. For context I was told by the office staff, the person who called to cancel his appointment with me, said he was injured in a car accident. I was later told he fell off a ladder and broke his leg? Okay? I then reached out to Joe a case worker Shanon mentioned previously. I called and talked to him and explained what I wanted. I assumed they had some internal method for filing for benefits directly but they do not. They use the same BS system the general public uses and failed to explain that. I needlessly made the long trip to Key West to watch him do something I did previously done on my boat. Yeah, I was annoyed. I was even more annoyed about the overall situation.

Then on Wednesday July 8^th, I received a call from Kaiser Permanente. They had called a couple times before but I never answered and I do not have my voicemail set-up. I still didn’t know why they were calling because the last time we talked, I told them there was no reason for them to contact me. However, I did answer the phone and was going to tell them again to stop calling. Initially the conversation was ok, and the person/nurse on the other line asked if I was able to get help here in Florida. I told her I was set to see someone without elaborating. Then asked if she could ask me questions (standard psych form) again, I did not know why because as I explained to her, I was not in MD and not coming back. Reluctantly I agreed. I have taken several of these questionnaires and was aware of most of the questions. Most all the first ones are basic BS demographic and physical attribute, then eventually drinking and drugs. It’s the last question, #9 that invokes my inner rage. Do you think about suicide or homicidal thoughts or ideations? Yeah, I could lie and have lied previously. But I was instantly angry! Statement retracted. To be clear I bet half the world thinks this way at some point in time and trust me, as someone that considers myself as highly educated with a deep interest in philosophical thought; this does not sit well. She immediately became alarmed and I told her the conversation was over and not to ever call again.

I do not understand these mental health people. I know they have to comprehend a lot of the people who take these questionnaires lie. People need help and they are simply not getting it. Many of these people who have been through the “system” know what the real help is: aggressive police action, prison time, high court and lawyer fees and lastly the baggage of an unjust system-continuing to drag you down in an already shitty country with a shitty economic system. This is so common and so well documented it’s simply pathetic! Needless to say, this led to a phone call shortly later and visions of my encounter in VA began to unfold. I answered the phone and it was a corporal with MD state police. Except this time, I was a little more focused. He stated the nurse reported I called and stated I wanted to blank people and he began to continue on. I immediately stopped him and told him his facts was already wrong! It was her that called me I declared and then went on to say: is that how he wants to go into court before the judge with. Before the conversation could take one more minute, I told him this conversation was over and hung up. However, the damage was done and sent my mind racing. My first thought making sure the boat was ready to leave within a minutes-notice. I spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning the bottom filling the tanks and other preparations.

Thursday July 09, after several mentally challenging days I was looking forward to talking to Shanon. I checked in, waited and a few minutes, she appeared and retrieved me back to her office. Once the door shut, she apologized saying she was just in a meeting, but I was still early?? Her mood was much more monotone than the last three times we talked, where she was especially cheerful and chatty. It did cross my mind that maybe it was because of my brief pass at her at the end of the last session, but after she started talking it was clear that wasn’t why. She asked me how and what I have been doing this week. I first told her I worked on the computer/website mostly. Then I told her about going to see Joe trying to get benefits again, and then almost out of no-where she blindsided me with a tirade of attacks about not working, using her own story of “being a single mom, pulling her big girl pants up, earning her degree and getting to work.” She tried to declare my ability to work by citing the website. This wasn’t just a candid opinion on me refusing to work. It was outright hostility, which completely shocked me in so many ways, especially coming from someone who is supposed to be trained and show compassion for all types of people-going through all types of situations. I did eventually begin to defend my stance of non-compliant slave indoctrination and my argument of the mass injustices this state imposes on the working class and poor. The argument grew louder to a point she shushed me. For the second time, I re-iterated my willingness to die before I work for another BS employer. I said this exact statement during our June 30th session. But then she began to attack my opinion of Gary and my rigid religious stance, making it sound like I literally went in and spit on him or something. The fact is, concluding Gary and my only meeting, he tried pushing his religious crap on me, and I said nothing to him about it. I did bring it up to her on first session, where I literally was also holding an official compliant that I intended to file, not about Gary but all the religious paraphernalia in the lobby (this she knew as well.) Needless to say, she had a lot to say, and it was clear this was now about something else. Out of curiosity, I asked her for copies of the treatment paper I signed last session. She was unable to print them so, I said just go ahead and email them to me. As I saw her preparing the email I got up and left not saying a word. Today’s office visit 20-25 minutes.

As I walked outside, I thought-what the fuck just happened? I am sure anyone that have been in this situation immediately thinks, what did I do? I began to review and analyze our discussion from Tuesday June 30^th, trying to figure out if in deed it was because of me telling her she was attractive or something else I might have said. The fact is, there wasn’t anything that warranted her action today! On my way to the library, I stopped at the park to check out the treatment paper via email on my phone. After reviewing it, she labeled my status as severe depression-mid. Which is not surprising because both previous discussions were positive and light and as I stated before I was careful because of the false comments from Horizon Behavioral Health. I continued reading and found a possible answer; in her notes of treatment, she said “perceived injustices.” It still wasn’t clear if this session had become a political hit job, a grievance defending Gary or a more male chauvinistic approach (which I do not personally like, but this situation calls for it); her time of the month. I needed to reply, but what, and of course it had to be professional and to the point. At the same time, I needed to bring to life, my comment about being attracted to her, as this could complicate any further defenses Guidance Care Center could make if things were to come of it down the road. In just about any situation, I find myself in these days I am ready to press the matter, file grievances and follow through with futile suits, but this isn’t one of them. Frankly, it’s just disappointing that I keep trying to get help and I keep getting let down.

Here is the email I sent:

Jul 9, 2026, 11:03 AM 

Shanon,

I am sorry I told you I was attracted to you last Tuesday. Not that I am recanting because our heated discussion today, you are beautiful, but to be clear, I have much greater mental health issues than you have documented or we have been able to discussed in our few sessions which has kept me from engaging in relationships in general. This will become apparent in time. I believe this disclosure and constant struggle with getting the care I deserve complicated the therapy session. 

Chris

Her reply was more confusing considering what and how it unfolded.

Jul 9, 2026, 12:21 PM

Hi,

Thank you for the email. It is difficult to get the entire picture at the second visit. The treatment plan is just a sort of guide. We reevaluate it every 90 days and sooner if necessary. I apologize if I was not more patient.

Would you like to schedule another appointment?

I planned on waiting till next week to respond but I received this email from her today:

July 10, 2026, 10:31 AM

Good morning,

If you would like to continue counseling, please let me know as soon as possible so we can discuss scheduling another appointment. If I do not hear from back from you, I will assume you are no longer interested in continuing services and will proceed with closing your case. If you wish to resume services in the future, you are welcome to contact the office to discuss reestablishing care, subject to availability.

Sunny regards,

This is my reply:

July 10, 2026, 1:24 PM

Why would I dare put my mind in your hands after what you did?

Chris

At this point the conversation is unfolding in real time as I am publishing updating this blog. Her latest response below

July 10, 2026, 1:29 PM

Hello Chris,

I am not sure what you are referring to. I will close your case.

Have a good weekend.

Wow really!

A few things to consider:

By June 30^th she should have been quite aware by now through my website the seriousness of my mental health situation. Nothing about me or the constant string of events or the website itself is normal. The name of my website alone should have yielded much greater consideration and careful approach.

I want to clear up this work thing again. Who should I work for, why and to what end? Why do I have to succumb myself to the same ole BS paycheck and further jeopardize my life working in a state that could not give a rats ass about it’s people so some prick can make money of me. Is it not the “American dream” to choose my own path? Her argument sounded more and more like a typical MAGA/Trump Karen angle.

I have not hidden my ability to work. I am fucking good at everything I do and that includes writing. But this isn’t the point is it? I have the certain luxury most people don’t have, and that is the ability to stand up and fight against this system that has stolen, beat down and hollowed out the working class!     

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